Evey has her first spinal rod lengthening surgery in a month. I'm actually a little nervous about this surgery, for the first time, probably ever. Now that we know she has brittle bones and low bone density and she broke a rib the first spinal rod placement surgery, I'm nervous that as they're lengthening the rods, some more ribs will break, or worse her pelvic bone, or worse other stuff. For now, there's nothing I can do, but take care of home and kids for a month and keep on keeping on.
Evey's life constantly reminds me that this mortality is a marathon, not a sprint. I have no idea what her future holds, I don't have a clue how long she'll be with us, and there's nothing I can do about that. All I can do is take it one step at a time, tackle one issue at a time, and be the best Mama and wife that I can be to the other 4 amazing people in my life. Isn't that the beauty of it all, that sometimes we just have to endure the best we possibly can in some really yucky "mortal" situations and trust that the Lord's plans are perfect for us. Hence the saying, "Faith in every footstep", and believe me, there are a lot of baby footsteps in our marathon life. I'm grateful that some days the Lord allows us to feel like life is a sprint and I'm grateful on other days we have to endure the marathon - to help us remember how good the sprint days feel. I'm also learning on the marathon days, there's an extra responsibility on my shoulders to make sure that I ask my Heavenly Father incessantly to help me, because I simply cannot do it without Him. For now, we are baby stepping, faithfully, to the ultimate end goal - being reunited with our loving Heavenly Father.
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